The Effects of Effexor

The Effects of Effexor (PMxxxi)

I have dropped one of my

meds again,

the dreaded effexor, have to go through the entire

week,

gravely ill,

doing a new job and wondering

how the fuck I am going to make

it to the end of the week

without anyone noticing.

Going off effexor as well as making you sick

to your stomach

also makes you cry for no

apparent reason,

at any given time or place.

Usually with me it is

triggered by a song,

many ones that are a reminder

of my childhood,

for instance, Pink Floyd

and The Who are definite full-blown

bawling triggers making

me stay upwind of anything Q107.

When I am out in public

I have cried from Tiny Tim, Metallica and

The Travelling Wilburys.

Anything "Pinawa" in my mind

would also set me off.

Why do I stop taking the drug if

it makes me feel so bad and is

such an unhealthy shock to my

body.

Its the only way I can get

back in control,

and feel some emotions again.

While on the drug everything

is predestined and I lose the ability

to make a conscious decision

about how I feel and why,

I don't dream when I am taking effexor,

when I go off, I dream

constantly, when I can sleep!

The dreams are stark,

macabre, always dark

violent and frightening but at

least they exist and I am

feeling them.

The old wives tale that you can;t

die in your dreams is a load

of shit,

I have died hundreds of times

dreaming,

plane crash, decapitation,

stabbing, shooting,

falling off a Swiss Alp,

and just recently crushed under

the wheels of a Subway

train,

I've done it all!!

MCC