Keeping it Down

Keeping it Down (PMxxxii) (For Rick Schaepart!!)

Premium Plus crackers are about

the only thing I can keep down

these last two days.

I tried eating rice yesterday

but it didn't even try and

go through the system even my old friend

Pepsi-Cola,

has been rejected by my

abused body and especially

rotting teeth.

I can drink flavored soda

water but only if there's no sugar, or fake sugar

in it,

Otherwise it erupts.

Tonight I'll try the rice gain,

hoping i've been through

the worst. It takes about

two weeks before i'll start to

feel well again, and in two

months of lazing about in a

chronic funk,

I'll probably be ready to go back

on the drug again.

I've been warned this switching

is really bad for my physical

heart.'But my mental heart relies on

it to get through the days.

The Doctor says she is going to

switch me off it to try some thing

else, but we never seem to get around to it.

He knows nothing about my

personal feelings.

I just kee refilling the

presription even when I don't take them

i have about two months in reserve,

just in case.

Maybe I'll take them with me to

Argentina when I go in a couple of weeks.

they are out of range expensive there,

and I have a few people,

who could use them

MCC