More Effexor Withdrawal

More Effexor Withdrawal (PM XL)

Day four of effexor withdrawal

is hard,

but it has the feeling of moving

forward instead of behind.

Overall health such as nausea,

aches and pains are on the ebb,

although there is a strong

increase in the

'crying for no reason' or crying

initiated by a real bizarre

reference such as a song on a

television show.

Frequent urination is certainly

an inconvenient side-effect,

especially when you are expected to

remain in one place unless

you are physically relieved.

I have had to make a number

of unannounced runs to

the loo but luckily they have either

gone unnoticed or it has been so slow

I was not missed.

My body responds better physically,

instead of slumping against a wall

or lie on a couch,

helpless.

I am able to overcome the

black and move past my mind

to complete tasks,

whereas two nights ago I

could not force myself to get

up and do the dishes

after supper,

last night I could do the dishes

and take the garbage

out without the world falling apart.

My sleep remains terrible and

inefficient, I sleep for maybe

an hour and a half, two hours

and then I have to get up

to urinate.

Then, stupidly, instead of trying to

go back to bed right away,

I'll go downstairs for a smoke,

thereby waking myself up even

more and stealing much

needed rest from myself.

Although the reality is that

Zopiclone has ceased to

work as an effective

sleep-aid, I can't imagine

being without it.

Out of all the drugs I take,

to me it is the most

important and the last one

I would give up.

It calms my brain even though

it doesn't always let my body

relax completely.

It works the best when I take it

with a small amount of food,

a sandwich, ice cream or

a banana,

eat too much and the effect get lost

in the food.

Eat too little and you have to

pick through your own vomit to

try and take it again.

I joined a Zopiclone support

group a while ago on Facebook,

but usually everyone is too

stoned to respond properly to

anything I post there.

Lorazepam is smooth, I'll give

it that,

but it will never take place

of the Blue Wonder,

Oh that magnificent mixture of

wonderful chemicals and a little

touch of magic and hope,

all wrapped up into a

tiny little pill,

7.5 mgs of rhovane

bound with some jell-o-like

substance I imagine,

making so many people happy,

the world over.

MCC