SHATTERING GLASS

Shattering Glass
PM 1310044

A slight disenchantment coupled with a complete

lack of interest, I can't tell and I can't put the

jigsaw puzzle together. I must be really stupid

or perhaps just completely insane,

I have trouble putting the two together and more

trouble admitting that I am neither.

I used to be strong, or at least I thought I

was, I can't move around like I used to

and nothing gravitates to me anymore,

I am giving off anti-matter,

and I don't know what it is.

how can I be giving something off if I 

don't know what it is?

I guess I just know that I am emanating

something and people just know enough to stay

away from it.

I used to be able to thread a needle at arms

length, but now if I don't have my glasses

on there is very little, if no, sewing being done in my

life. I can't fix a button and I never knew how

to repair a zipper,

Who does anymore?

No point in crying, salty tears only leave

streaks and sometimes it hurts to wash your

face, battery acid pools in the wrinkles,

scouring them for certain but not the

kind of clean you were looking for.

The bench in the park seems the most

likely place to take that load off,

watch as the world passes you by

instead of making any effort to become a part

of it, each passerby leaves behind something

in their wake, your choice whether to make

a positive catch or not, let out the fishing line

and don't try to hook anything,

let something bite your hook.

I lay awake all night and wonder how I will

make it through the next month,

do I have the where with all to imagine the amount

of scenarios it takes to make a complete day?

There are so many holes in the universe

and each step is a risk and a victory at the

same time. Walking on glass is not a metaphor

to be used wisely especially for those who live

in glass houses.

Feel the glass crack under your feet and

wonder when its going to break, what is

underneath to break your fall, will it save

you, will you kill it or will it kill you,

its too far to move off the glass

so you have to take the next step.

MCC